Meltdown Monday

When Jordan and I were on YWAM we would have weekly meetings on mondays where we would air our grievances, we affectionately  called them "Meltdown Mondays"...

They went something like this,

"Would SOMEONE please stop... 

* leaving their half empty cups all over the house

* using my hair brush (which i leave in the public bathroom for my own convenience, not yours!)

* leaving their dirty dishes in the sink
* eating my ice cream (that was found for free by someone else in a dumpster)
* skipping their morning chores

and cue the meltdown... Waaaaaaaaaaaaa! 

All this reminiscing leads me to my point, Yesterday I hosted my own personal Meltdown Monday (and it was a doozie).

(no children were harmed in the taking of this photo)

I wish I could say it was just the kids...

(no adults were harmed in the taking of this photo)

When I shared my post last week I was really encouraged by the thank you's. Because really that translates to, "yes we feel that way too", and that means I'm not alone.  

But, guess what! I did it! In the midst of all the emotional turmoil, I kept up with the house yesterday! I didn't get around to scrubbing the kitchen floor or anything crazy like that! But my husband walked in the door, noticed the difference, and praised me for our clean home! And I felt eternally satisfied and lived happily ever after... 

No... I cringed and I shook my head... because I knew that more important duties had been sacrificed in order to accomplish menial tasks. My eternal perspective had lacked, my hope in the Gospel had been nil. And when I felt the weight of opportunities missed in the hearts of my kids, I turned not to Christ, but to some silence in a mini van (coupled with Taco Bell cheesy fiesta potatoes and a bar of chocolate) to soothe my aching soul. 

I missed it, I really did! Apparently, knowing you're in the same boat only goes so far when the boat is sinking. 

But there is HOPE! Thank God there is hope! Though I miss the mark in every conceivable way! For when I fail I am forced to cling once again to the assurance found in Grace undeserved. 

Remember to rest in that grace, whatever day your meltdown arrives.

the whole truth and nothing but the truth...

 So let's get this out of the way first... He's so cute right? I know! And handsome! And strong! I mean look at that neck control! (and don't forget drooly)

And to the relief of this American baby's father, in case he happens to roll over into Canada, he should be able to find his way back ;)

As I prepare to post some highlights of our day today, I have to admit this season of going from 2 to 3 kids has been hard for me. I was doing alright at keeping it together with two, but I literally can't keep up anymore (and I have spent many busy/angry mama days trying). I do so prefer to share the happy moments and neglect to mention the hysterical screams and fears of failure. I like to seat you in my tidy living room having safely stuffed all of my crap in my bedroom... But God continues to graciously and faithfully strip that from me. And though prone to forget, I am learning to be vulnerable and honest. Today I will try to bring that into my blog a bit. :)

Yay for sunshine! we have been having a blast outside! And these boys seem to believe every occasion calls for hats. J's was laying in the grass somewhere... actually both of them are still laying out in the grass. (No daddy not the lawn mower!!!)

Soak it in Jordan, this may be the closest we ever come to a little girl with a ponytail.  She is adorable though! ;)

On a day like this of course we want a picnic! So I made my little boys scoot out of my natural light and told them not to touch anything while I took this pretty picture...

And now the dishes are sitting on the counter next to this mornings breakfast dishes (and last nights dinner dishes). :)

Sunny weather bonuses include: More frequent bathing! Thank you Wild Kratts for teaching my son that elephants dust baths protect them from the sun and keep them cool! J's been doing some experimenting with that.

 Here's that cutie again! And as I was crawling around trying to get just the right angle I realized I was doing it again...

So in the name of good honest reporting...

Is that all? 

OK fine! 

and this and this too... :)

 

OK well I'm going to stop this nonsense now because both my big boys are napping!
Yet another sunny weather bonus (one of my favorites).